February 8,2015. Just rest and know God!

Most  of my life has been spent on dealing with medical issues and trying to be better as a human being.  I love God and His word' I truly want to be more like Jesus, but alas I am human and I fail.  I would like to say that my first response to a new issue is to Praise God first. Guess what it is not! My first response is to be alarmed, then this is really hard, and then a little grousing and then God I need your strenght. And you know what He gives it to me every Time! Then I ask forgiveness for not calling on Him at first.  I am just so thankful that as time goes on in walking with Him, it takes less time for me to give it to Him than earlier in my walk with Him. I think some call it "maturing in the Faith".  I just know that I cannot grow closer to Him without being in His Word,  truly the best way. I try to refrain from things that are against His ways. Just I fail at this too. Sometimes wanting to watch something on tv I shouldn't but I keep on trying! Just keep on in His ways, His principles and precepts. He will never leave you, we may turn away from Him, but He is waiting for your return. Just like Prodgical son. Whilst away he was lost, he had turned away from his father. But when he returned home his father was waiting for him.with wide opened arms!  

Today has been one filled with new physical trials and pain. Progressive MS is progressive. It is the first time I was not able to walk to restroom . I called out for Deron, he came..walker won't fit thru doors but Thanks be to God, I have arm crutches and was able to drag self to bathroom. We had hoped to shower today but will have to wait till tomorrow. I don't like showering and Dr.appointments on same day because energy depletion, but we do what we have to do. And what is so just so promising is my faith. That  My God, My Lord will be with me and give me the strenght to do it!

I so long for new fixed body in Heaven with My God! 

I love you all!  Keep on trusting,praying and being with God!

Deanna